today it will be exactly one year.

when i think abt what has happened, i wonder, what has changed since last yr? after the incident last yr, it changed me, forced me to re-evaluate my priorities, and i did. but it seems then up to now, i havent done anth at all.

looking at my classmates and ex-classmates, either as non-christians or apathetic christians, i feel lyk i need to do smth all the time. and i've tried. i invited them for various events, but they were all bz or had other excuses not to go. i tried sharing the gospel with one whom i was the closest to and whom i thot would be the most open, but he was just uninterested.

on the other hand, i see other frens, whom i encouraged, finally invite their frens to church, and they came. ive shared the gospel with some of their frens, and a few of them accepted.

y is it so much more diff for my frens to come to church or to be open to God?

after last yr, i dont ever want to see it happen to any of my classmates again. i still rmb the despair, the fire, the suffering, the loneliness, the place tt i dont ever want to and am happy that i will not have to go again. but what abt others? the ex-classmates whom i studied 3 yrs wif? the classmates around me rite now? y is it tt i cant do anth abt it? y is it tt after 1 yr, and trying so hard, nth changes?